I'm not a vampire

I'm not a vampire but I felt like one. It took everything to go outside the last few days. The night seemed to be my friend. I had to put on a smile to look like I was happy and doing fine but deep inside all I wanted to do was scream and break down and cry. The overwhelming emotion I have built up needs to be released and writing it down is the only way I know-how. The darkness has become my friend the daylight has become my enemy.  I'm exhausted and tired during the day but during the night I can't sleep my mind goes through thoughts and memories of the good days I had.